On enjoying a moment

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I’m not really sure how to go slowly.

Even on my slowest summer days, I am still wondering what all needs to get done and what I should be doing to best prepare for my next season.

Even when my husband and I are on the most relaxing vacation with nothing on the agenda, I’m still plotting out our hours in our head, wondering how we can have the most fun possible.

I’m realizing this, though. In the slowest of summer days, I still have to choose stillness. A stillness in my heart, and in my scheduling, and in my body. An invitation and an openness to stop and enjoy myself.

It’s in these moments that I have to force myself to be still and enjoy the freedom, space, and relaxation in front of me.

As the water trickles down through the cold brew filter.

As Franklin (our dog) wants to sniff every blade of grass meticulously before picking one to pee on. 

As I clean out old boxes of “stuff” and happen upon pictures that I must sort through, then take a moment to soak up the joy of old friends and old memories.

As the car in front of me takes just 5 too many seconds to go once the light turns green. 

As I drive to the public library for the millionth time to return books that I never ended up reading.

As I wait on my mind to relax and let the words type themselves onto the screen.

I’m realizing that not everything has to have a purpose or a plan.

That sometimes, we can do things that are purely and unequivocally just for us to relax and enjoy.

It’s not a waste of time to stop and enjoy the moment. 

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Z is for Zest

Zest: an enjoyable exciting quality.

What does it even mean to have a zest for life?

I’m not sure. But, in writing diligently and expansively and purposefully on this series, I am beginning to see that I can have a zest for life even when all of my days don’t necessarily give me space to do that. I can feel a zest for life when doing things that cause me to wake myself to life.

It’s bittersweet that this series has come to an end. What I thought to be a daunting task was both a great discipline and joy for me in the past month. I’ve realized that without changing any circumstances, having a zest for life is a quality that I can grow and cultivate all on my own.

Here are some highlights from the journey.

10 things I liked about writing and publishing everyday:
  1. The deadline got me going. Without the pressure of a daily deadline, I don’t actually write much of anything. If I didn’t have a post planned for that day, my fingers got flying and my head got a bit more centered as I tried to come up with SOMETHING.
  2. I liked that I had something to look forward to throughout the day. Not that stats and feedback fuel me, but it was cool to see my blog have more activity throughout the day and to have something to look at it and towards gave me a reprieve from my daily grind.
  3. The exposure that I gave myself through my social media channels like Instagram and Twitter made people around me know what I was doing. I appreciated the people who mentioned to me in person that they had been reading my blog and even reference certain points.
  4. Following up on that, I liked that I was able to share more of myself with people close to me. The people close enough to me to pay attention to what I was doing showed me that they care about this small passion project and dream of mine.
  5. I realized that not many people are watching closely enough to be ready to pounce on my ideas and get me down. Nobody is actually out to get me. And, maybe there is pride of self-importance present in thinking that other people would be thinking that much about me to hate on me.
  6. Meeting my writing goals each day gave me a sense of accomplishment. I really felt my own progress as a writer and as a blogger through this process.
  7. The confidence that I grew throughout this month is significant. I feel more established as a writer and blogger. The more that I posted things, the more my bravery and courage was built up.
  8. Going through the alphabet wasn’t as cumbersome as I thought, it was actually helpful. It gave me topics to write about that I probably wouldn’t have thought to write about. It brought back things from the past that I could press into that I wouldn’t have really felt like approaching if I had just been focused on writing the present.
  9. I see that there’s different types of writing and it’s okay to have different purposes. For example, journaling may be for the purpose of self reflection, self care, and processing. Writing for a blog is for the purpose of sharing, connecting, informing, or encouraging. It’s okay for my writing to not always be for own processes. It’s a new way to approach writing, though, as I’ve almost always written for myself.
  10. Making a series gave me a guideline to follow along with. But, it also gave my readers something to follow along with and to expect from me.

So, there you have it! Thank YOU for following along this journey and giving me the gift of your time and readership. Can’t wait to show you (and myself) what I have in store for MARCH! See you then! 🙂